For as long as I can remember, I've known the story of David and Goliath ... of how the mighty giant fell at the hands of an unknown shepherd boy and his sling shot. In my mind's eye as a child, Goliath was 100 feet tall and weighed 1000 pounds, and David was just a small boy. It was always amazing to me that David showed near fear at facing this behemoth of a man and still had the grit to talk trash .....
Today, however, Goliath seems far less of an adversary to me.
As we live and grow, I suppose somewhere we allow ourselves to believe that living life will get easier. We are more intelligent and have more control over our lives than when we are kids in our parents homes. Yet ..... this thought process seems to run in perfect contradiction to what actually happens in life. When we are kids, most things are cut and dried in black and white ... especially in our relationships. We know who our family is, we know who our friends are and we certainly know who the enemy is. And, though the dream would be for discernment to carry us into a clearer understanding of these facts as we grow, such is not the case.
This morning I began the walk into a deeper study of King David, specifically covering the guarding of our hearts. As with all other David studies, I was expecting there to be a lengthy dissertation on the circumstances surrounding the famous battle from my childhood. Strangely the man from Gath barely made appearance, other than to point out that Goliath was an enemy of God, which made him an enemy of the Israelite children, hence an enemy of David. Today's lesson looked past the mighty giant and toward the Invisible Goliath that David would soon face ... King Saul.
After defeating Goliath, David was given choice position and power within Saul's kingdom, and with obedience to God and respect for the king, David devoted himself to doing anything and everything he was asked. However, in madness (insanity) Saul became jealous of David, because he could see that God was with him. And, all the while that David was leading Saul's army, expanding Saul's territory and making him a very wealthy man, even ministering to him when no one else could or would ..... Saul was laying wait plotting ways to kill him, because he had come to fear and hate him, for no reason other than being ..... twice even launching a spear at David himself hoping to kill him.
I have sat in silence and solitude for most of this afternoon and evening having been deeply altered by the words of today's lesson. Revelatory moments with God often leave me in a deeper state of meditation, yet today was a different moment for me. Not that I am troubled in my Spirit, but I am definitely stirred. Too true to my current walk with God was today's teaching. Having learned through out this past year that not everyone who says they love me does, not everyone who professes to be a Christian is and that far too often the lines of family and friends become skewed and gray leaving an enormous foothold for the devil to play. All the while I have been in constant support, encouragement and prayer for the people who seemingly should be the closest in my life ..... I am learning daily that there are those who embrace the opportunity to be to me as Saul was to David.
In September of last year I began a journey for truth with God. HIS truth about Him, HIS truth about me and HIS truth about Him in my life. Diligently I've prayed for all these months for revelations of truth ... the good, the bad and the ugly of it ... everything I needed to know and see in order to get where I am going with Him. Over these past months I have laughed, cried and been in complete awe of the the truth the Lord has revealed to me ..... ever in prayer, ever diligent to learning and gaining wisdom in His truth. And, even in heartbreak ... ever thankful for the lessons and the journey. I have seen windows and doors opened and I have experienced windows and doors being closed ... all by His hand. It has been a divine process like no other I've known, and I would not take one step away from it for anything in the world. Today's Word from Him ran through every fiber of my being with revelation and clarity I cannot find words to describe.
The only disheartening fact for me today was that I recognized who my invisible goliaths are immediately.
In His Truth,
No Spear in Hand,
Kalena Resting
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